i’m not feeling well, physically and mentally. during class break yesterday, i played basketball with azlan at our court here. the court was nice but not ventilated. sweated like a pig and entered class. as i was too tired, i didn’t pay attention in class. luckily it was biology and she was talking about transport of molecules across a cell surface membrane(plasma membrane). it rains here every day and my uncle fetches me with his mtorcycle. basically i’m riding pillion in the rain most of the time.
it finally caught up to me. i was feeling unwell and dead tired. then i realised minutes later that the worse is coming. i realised that i’m going to lose my second most valuable treasure (the first is being my family). i was devastated. although i just found it recently, i value it very much.
i’m not sure whether i could find something like that again. it was really special. maybe i’ll find it again someday but will it remain in the same condition? i really don’t know. you can only find this valuable treasure once in a blue moon. this really sucks. the thought is spinning around in my head until i had no mood to watch tv or read the newspaper yesterday. the gut-wrenching feeling is worse than the feeling of failing to get straight A’s in my UPSR and what i felt during the death of my maternal grandparents put together.
i went to 7-eleven this morning and got myself Oreos and yogurt, the two of the best things in life. somehow, the yogurt was not refreshing and the Oreos taste like biscuits for diabetics (they suck…no sugar…jacob’s hi-fibre-low-salt biscuits were better). the coffee i’m having now which i asked the operator to bancuh sangat ‘kao-kao’ had no kick. it tasted like milo without sugar.
i had no choice but to believe that God has better plans. i hope that i won’t lose this treasure forever and someday in the nearest future,we’ll meet again. until then,i’m gonna keep myself busy here and continue to dunk my oreos in yogurt until my treasure returns.